Friday, June 26, 2009

something about the swiveling of a fan...

It's 9:44 am.

I am on summer vacation.

I'm still wearing my glasses, and my hair is in a crazy nest of a mess.

Currently the windows are open and I can faintly hear the busy traffic that is in the world beyond the walls of my house.

I'm sitting at the kitchen table with a glass of cold water that seems to be perspiring, leaving a tiny puddle beneath the cup.

Above me is the rotating ceiling fan that is gently pushing the cool air back and forth around my body.

There is something about the swiveling of the fan...there is a sense of calm, a sense of refreshment, a sense of renewal.

Recently a friend said to me, "Tina...do you ever slow down?!" When I heard that, it actually made me take a huge step back and think about it. I love people, and doing things, going places, seeing new things. I definitely love it! But I also love the silence of sitting in my room alone with only the flickering of a candle. I love taking a bike ride or a run all alone, not having to talk to anyone.

I have never wanted to be the kind of person who is never able to step back and slow down. I know a lot of people who are on the go 24/7...and it totally works for them. I have never wanted that, though. For me, if I am like that, I picture a totally crazy, worn down, and not very fun person (I know, already sounds like me, right? :)) Kind of like this picture...



But, I always thought I was good and balancing the activities in my life with the quietness in my life. As of recently, I don't know if I have been doing that. I am on summer vacation and my calendar looks more busy NOW than it did during the school year. That's scary. I have been waking up no later than 8 most mornings, going to the gym, stopping at the beach to do some reading for class, visiting friends, nannying, going to class (5 hours a pop), the list goes on. I haven't been doing as much of the quiet reflection, spending time with God, slowing down, etc.

Today I was planning to get up at 8:30 (a whole half hour later than normal!), go to the gym, swing by the beach again, and then get ready for coffee with a friend and nannying for the rest of the day. But when I woke up this morning, I thought, "Nope...I am gonna slow down..." So I laid back down for a half hour, I slowly woke up, and here I am. It's not 10:05 and I have yet to do anything significant.

It's 10:05 am.

My feet are up.

My ice cold water is slowly disappearing.

The sun is slowly shinning into the front window.

The fan overhead is still rapidly moving.

There is something about the swiveling of that fan......

Thursday, June 25, 2009

My New Alarm Clock....

Since I'm on summer break, I have a little bit of flexibility with my wake up time. Last year I remember sleeping in most days without an alarm...but this year, I decided I should still set an alarm so that I don't feel like I'm wasting my day. Especially with the fact that I'm taking classes and two days a week 5 of my daytime hours are sitting inside, I like the idea of getting up at a decent time and having time to enjoy my time off from work.

In any case, a few times I have not set an alarm in hopes to sleep in a bit...

I woke up one more to a "Tap tap tap" on my window. For some reason I assumed that it was the cord to the blinds that was hitting against my window. You know how the cord to blinds has a little thing on the end and it sometimes hits against the window? That's what it sounded like. Then I realized I don't have blinds so it couldn't be that.

After I heard it a few times I just groaned, and rolled over, planning to go back to sleep.

"Tap tap tap tap tap"...I heard it again!

I decided to open my blinds to figure out what was making the noise. This is what I saw...



In my head I said a few bad words and then out loud growled, "Are you serious??" I decided to tap on the window a few times thinking it would scare the little bird away. Much to my luck, it did not go away. Nope! You know what it did? It started pecking louder.



Since then it's come back 1 or 2 other times...all on days when I do not want to be up early. So lucky me, I have a new alarm clock!

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Pick up line?!

So I was minding my own business, walking into the library this afternoon...

I was walking alone, towards a group of gentlemen who were doing some landscaping work. I already felt a bit uncomfortable because it was me walking towards a bunch of dudes, which I couldn't have avoided. I just walked, head up, and tried not to make eye contact.

That tactic did not work.

As I got closer, two men branched away from the rest of the group, walking straight towards me.

"You dropped something, Miss..." said one of the guys.

I looked down, assuming that something had fallen out of my oversized and overstuffed purse.

"You dropped my number so you should probably pick it up..."

I was literally confused for a second. Cause when I realized I had not dropped anything, and that he was trying to use a "smooth" pickup line", I also realized that what he said made no sense, and it wasn't even a good line.

He then proceeds to say, "Wow...you are a very pretty woman...your boyfriend should make sure he says that to you every day, and realize that he's lucky....what nationality are you??"

I didn't want him to know I felt uncomfortable, so I smiled and said, "Oh, I'm Peruvian and Greek...as well as some other stuff..."

"Well, its working for you....you are really beautiful Miss. Make sure your boyfriend knows that...tell him I said that..." replied the man who was obviously years older than me.

I smiled again, and continued walking.

The latter part of his comments were more flattering than the weird/confusing pick up line he tried to use at first. Pick up lines....who REALLY uses them successfully anyway?!

Saturday, June 06, 2009

50 degrees in June...a normal day in Minnesota

I love Minnesota...a lot, a lot!

I don't, however, love the fact that the weather can be so goofy. Its fun for a time, because it keeps you in suspense and on the edge of your seat..."I wonder if we're going to get snow or 90 degrees today..." But after a while of the back and forth, the ups and downs, the unpredictable factor of the weather is just plain annoying.

Today I woke up to the sound of rain trickling down the side of the house which overjoyed me! I love waking up on a rainy day, especially when it's Saturday. But what I didn't realize was how cold the wet rain would make our city. As I walked outside this morning, the cool air took the breath away from me as I was not expecting to feel 40 degrees rushing across my face.

It's nice to have a refreshing gust of cold air, but I put my winter clothes away a while ago...probably at least a month or more ago. This poses a small problem when the 40 degrees of the morning only warms up the day 10 more degrees and you have no warm clothes available. I had to scrounge around in my drawers and closet and came up with some cropped sweat pants, and a small fleece, along with some argyle socks.



Not much else you can do when it's 50 degrees in June!!